………..path?

………. slience……….

just thinking………

many thoughts across my mind…..

hearing my own heart beat….. like a drum… with a stead beat…. bum…bum..bum…

need a bit of quiet sometimes… take a breather and just sit back and think to one self… refelct on what things have happened…

Sitting on the train ride home i did this…just me… in my space… even when things were still going on around.. at that point i felt that everything has stopped..just for me to sit.. and look back..smile on the times that were happy…shed a silent tear on those that were sad…

seem quite lost at the moment.. dunno where i wanna go…want to go one way but it seems blocked off… making me go another.. yet i do not see a path i can walk on… do i have to make my own? need to get out of where i am at the minute cos im not liking the feel of this place…making me unhappy and not realli myself…yet i knew of this path but still ive seemed to strayed into it…pretty tired of walking.. might just sit down for a while.. have a rest.. then get back to finding my way out… though i kno some other day ill be back here… sigh

RonRon aka fan shu jai

Missing you missing me…

The nights are getting darker and sooner by day

Uni starts and work gets in the way

Missing you missing me

Dear muppets, where art thee?

So you start uni, I’m at work

You funisih uni, i’m still at work

Missing you missing me

When will we all see?

Squash on Wednesdays, Gym on Thursdays

Don’t think twice, join today!

Missing you missing me

Do you guys still remember me?

So, busy busy bumble bees

Are you coping with the uni fees?

Missing you missing me

When do you all intend to come see me?

Luna Muppet

what goes up.. must comes down…

  could say i had a wikid day but also a kinda of sad one! lots going on! thats how i like my day! full of fun , laughter.. and the odd suprise…

life can be cruel sometimes.. just when you think things are going perfect.. there has to be a huge hole in the road which you fall into and have to use all your energy to climb back out… suppose things were too good to be true… *sigh* just floasting away on cloud 9 when it suddenly pops and hurdles you back down to the ground…but i was expecting it i have to say.. had a parachute ready just incase..turns out i kinda needed it.. but i suppose all is good.. just need to get used to walking again after floating for a while on the clouds..

*sigh*really tired.. been doing lots.. need a looong sleeps to recover! hopefulli i be alright.. take a while but ill be ok..

RonRon aka Fan shu Jai

…let me be the one to hold you tight…

… be the one you wait for every night…

…i will always be right by your side…

lovin the new Rain Bi song atm.. called ‘MOVE ON’  ^^ think it sounds japanesey?  * dances away *

hmph! been picked on these past couple of days by the girlys! :’(  calling me this n that.. haha funni though.. dont take it at heart.. it a laugh.. haha aiiii wot im i gonna do with all of u eh??  hmph! 

nearly moon festivals! lots of yumyums to eat!.. while chatting away i glaced at the moon last nite out the window.. with the festival comming up it brought back memorys of a few yrs back… still clear in my head.. i know shes watching from above.. and i will carry on the tradition that we have always done.. brings a bit of a tear to my eye but also a smile.. happy times.. :’)

alot goin on in my head.. friends, family and uni.. lots going on…gonna be a busy bumble bee this yr… but ronron will try hardest to keep everyone happy and smiling..

rite.. more *dancy dancy* then it off to get ready for uni again… *sigh* timetable is abit poop but wot can u do eh?

RonRon aka fan shu jai

back at uni!!

waaa!! holidays over.. hard work begins!! …. well with abit of play time too.. ^^ hehe

In new flats! they ok.. crazy people round the corner playing music louder than a club and just the other night chucking random stuff out the window on to the floor…. bottles, coins and im ur a rolled up bit of paper? haha ^^

Speaking of club went out last night and it was poop.. didnt play my kinda music at all.. had all sorts of cheesy pop and rocky stuff… all good but not my scene… still need a decent night out before i do hardcore work!

Room still feels little bare… need some posters up! have the piccys all up along my shelf! good to stop and look at and look back on what a wikid time ive had.. and hopefulli will have more of in the future..

but for now… final yr… workworkwork.. need to get a move on… but need to get back into the swing of things…get into that working mode!!

* puts on working bandanna* charge!!!!

RonRon aka Fan shu jai

sparkle….shine….

Wow…clear night sky… looking up at the stars… just so mani of them out tonight…dancing in the sky…looking down on me.. winking at me…good to stare and get lost in as i think to myself…
Been pondering these past few days…not of any one major thing but just thinking… just wouldnt it be good if it all worked out? wouldnt it be much simpler to do one thing and get the result you wanted? Maybe i am being selfish… but sometimes i feel i just need to grasp what i need and not let go or give in to anyone? enough of mr nice guy.. time to fend for number 1! dont want to be last… but as the old saying goes… nice guys finish last… and yup… im a nice guy… suppose it better than not finishing at all but…will it be too late by then? when all is taken.. what will i have left?  *sigh*

suppose i just dont wanna be the only ‘star’ left on its own…or maybe its just how it is… i can see my shining star near me..shining bright.. but i cannot reach it.. even though it is so close to me..out of reach…can onli admire from afar…

well…one more look at the jems above and it off to bed..

RonRon aka fan shu jai

everywhere i go.. everywhere i look…

waaaaa! okay…. the other night was fun… and confusing…but why o why am i getting followed by signs pointing ‘THEM’ out again! hahah! last night it was the ‘THAI’ packet of crisps… then just a few hours ago at the gym on the radio as soon as i stepped through the doors there was an announcement of ‘THEM’ and about their show!! :S and if that wasnt bad enough the station started to play songs that were in the show!!! how random!!! or maybe not.. someone somewhere is trying to torture me…

so there i am… all happy running on the treadmill… when all of a sudden ‘pussycat dolls’ blares out on the radio and i find myself running faster trying to get away from ‘THEM’ and the images of sparkly dresses pops in my head!! Urk!! eww!! Its the ronron luck i tell ya..

hahha it all good laugh though… hopefulli it not a ‘sign’! :S not gonna see me anytime soon in a sparkly dress!! least i hope not… that will defo be URK!!!! hahahah

to be continued…. though i hope not for long..
RonRon muppet aka Fan shu jai

Urk!!! Waaaaa!! goooaww meenggg ahhh!! :’(

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I did it!!! went to see the show!!! so glad i wasnt on my own!! :S under that tent it a whole different world… full of lights, glamour, and sparkly dresses….. :S had fun tho.. even though it was scary at first…my mind was going crazy!! Still in total shock… how can it be?? how does it work?? mind is now officalli messed up..

yup…scary stuff.. mouth wide open style…eyes dont know where to look at.. where to wonder.. my radar has been broken!!

Definatly an experience not to forget.. guess ill be sleeping with my lights on 2night… hahaha funny thing was… soon as i got home.. had a shower…sent texts…sat on sofa with a packet of crisps n chilled…. looked at the packed…. sweet THAI chilli flavour!!! Waaaa!!! hak sai ngor ah!! :S its a sign… defo a sign… nooo!! urk!!!

right…. off to do some more manly stuff to get back my points!!! like… fight a bear with my bare hands… grrr… * sees a bear in a sparkly dress dancing around to pussycat dolls song*………………………………………………………..

RonRon muppet aka fan shu jai

so scared….. :’(

waa!!! so scared!!! 2morrow is the day!! *gulp*

thinking about it just makes me shiver * bbrrrr*

should be fine… but still… SCARY!!! * waaa*

all Tpanda’s fault… ^^ * hides behind Tpanda*

it will be night time too… even more scary!! * noooo*

:’(

If i live to tell the tale ill post about it….* ………*

RonRon muppet aka fan shu jai

Buzzzz…..

yes.. i am up again at stupid oclock.. because of a smelly fly thats buzzing around trapped behind my window curtain… hope it doesn’t buzz out and plop itself in my room… :S o well… it should eventualli fly out the gap in the window…. i hope.. or ill be panda eyed for tomorrow..aiii >.<

Been listening to Jay Chou’s new album lately.. especalli the track entitled ‘Far away’ love this tune…realli sweet and chilling…even tho i dont have a clue what he is on about i feel that i do..picking up bits…the chorus realli gets to me… With the help of the MV.. ^^ image i get is that….
A guy has to send off the one he loves somewhere…but he cannot go and be with her… ‘ a thousand miles apart’

Its hard to keep a relationship cos of the distance… ‘ too distant a relationship’

however he will wait for her… ‘ i shall use this lifetime to wait for you’

awwz…Sounds like a fairy tale.. hope for a happy ending… if ever im in this sitution i hope i would get a happy ending aswell.. thought knowing me ill will be waiting… and she will come back one day… but ill be waiting at the wrong place and miss her… lol

Gonna listen to this tune while i fall asleep and ponder about a question a certain ‘panda’ brought to my attention about my last post (for the record still confussled… need a clue) lol …*plays jay * keke;)

* hums tune will nodding off*

RonRon aka Fan shu jai